My dear sisters be like Bohessa !!!

As you all read in my last post about my agony to get a specific paper from one of our administrative sector, and the good news is that: I got it ... at last.

And as part of my continuous paradox show which I used to watch in the path of my life, here it comes the nice part of the show, which shaded away all the last agony.

I needed that specific paper for study application in a center located in the north west part of the globe, yes I am heading to the state, and what I want to say is that it takes me only two phone calls and one email to get my application done, and the papers have been packaged and sent back to me through the DHL service, and I am tracking it right now through the net, how exciting !!!.

It is terrific how the system there makes human life easier, yes the grass is always more green on the other side, I felt that today, but I wasn't glad because I want it to be green here, in my hometown, under my feet.

Now let me move on to the main reason to blog today ,which is to share with you my crush on this man, it is not a new crush , but it seems that the extra time which I have from some few days off from my work gave me the opportunity to follow some of my hobbies which is net surfing , and one of my friends on facebook has added him so she brought him back to my attention.

Sheikh Hamza Yusuf how great is this man, just watch the video and you will understand the title of my post, if any one interested in the whole talk , you can find it in youtube , or in facebook here enjoy :)

I should go to California as he is living there :)

It is just a diary!

Warning: for those who don't like to read personal issue, don't waste your time on this, it is very personal, and in some how silly.
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Long time ago I discovered that our administrative system is suck, but today I discovered that it suck suck suck suck and suck.
really depressive ...
how slowly things are running is ok with me, I get used to it, but my documents to be lost twice that is unbearable, to wait for one paper ,(which actually can be done within few minutes), for a whole month then the employer telling me in complete dullness: sorry your documents are lost you have to bring another copies.
I think I should have a Nobel Prize of peace, for being patient with the employer, and receiving his sorry statement with Crest extra whitening smile, I really don't know how I kept myself calm, may be coz I have no other choice.
Ok that is one of my down, and don't want to talk much about it, just want to mention that the paper is very important to me, and I really had the desire to punch that man in his face if I could.
I think this is one of the reasons which kill Libyan youth from inside, coz while I was calm and smiling, felt something inside me tearing; do you think our administrative system will ever improve??? I believe it will, but till then if any one has any advice how to overcome this inefficiency apart from using crest smile and patience technique, don't hesitate to give it.

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Trying to overcome this depressive event in my day, I took a ride through Tripoli roads at sunset time, my brother and his wife accompanied me, and he was the driver, when I do this kind of trips I try to look after the routine views in our daily life and lighten it, to lift up my spirit.
I wanted to share with you some of these views which really lifted me up:
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.The first one was for a white Toyota car, which was driving around and on both sides of it was written in a green bold letters الا أنت يارسول الله ( Except you the prophet of Allah ), the car's view touched me deeply, it is a way of smart silent remonstration.
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.The second one was for a disabled girl in her wheelchair with her mom pushing the chair in Alsaha alkhadra (Green Square), the excitement look over the girl's face was amazing, how an ordinary stroll can brighten up this girl's life.
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.The third view was in front of one of the toy's shop, and there were an over crowed of cars, and while we was trying to pass the traffic jam, a young girl, I hardly give her 7 or 8 years old, asked my brother to stop the car using her hand, and he stop it, we thought she was trying to cross the road, and for our surprise she was signing for another little girl in the opposite side of the road encouraging her to cross the road as we stopped, we really fall in laugh and excitement from her move, this young girl was really brave to stop a car for her girlfriend to pass, a friendship in it's delightful sight.

thank you for being patient and finished reading this long post , and now I have another battle to fight tomorrow at work, I have to have a rest, good night, and don't forget to leave a comment :)

Refreshing Breath Of Spring !

Today I decided to take a day off from my life !!!

I left all my work , and all my study.

I left all my routine.

I left all the negative passing to me through aljazeera news.

I left it all behind my back ,

and headed to mother earth, to recharge my energy and restore my soul.

I embraced the colors of wild spring.

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I would be pleased if you share the views with me.

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Just click here for the pictures with my comments, and here for the slide show.

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Update inspired by Gheriani's comment :)

Can u guess in which city in Libya these pictures was captured ?

My Ups & Downs !

The last two weeks were too overcrowded with many ups and downs, but elhamdoAllah I could survive at last, I will not write about the downs as there is no one likes the down, is there any one?

Well well well, yes it is my English language certificate, I finished the first semester and passed to the next, with grade A ... loool loool loool, we finished in last January,but we got it only at last week ... I am not sure that I will be able to finish all the semesters, but I will continue as long as the circumstances allow me.

Another achievement is that I finally got the will to start my study for USMLE step I, my start is too late, coz I always have a shortage of time ( work, english class, etc..) but as the wise man said "better late than never",I will try to reorganize my time to have more spare hours for study, hope this study will fructify something in the near future.

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And lastly another good news, for all of u who care about the cuttie Boody ( Abdallah ), it seems that he is going to have a family, not so sure if they will be able to qualify for the adoption , still the process of papers is going on, hope they could have him at last coz they are really nice, I will up date u later if anything new happened .

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Pray for him and for me :)

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fe aman Allah

Thank you notice!

cheished friend

a_akak

Brave Heart

ibeebarbie

Anonymous

dusk till dawn

Maya M

Benghazi Citizen

LoveLyH

littlegirl

hatem

MusicLover

and any other friend or visitor who just passed by :

THANK YOU

Your words were more than appreciated, it worked like candlelights in my darkness .

I would like to announce for those who are concerned, that I have made some decisions at last, and I was relieved, I see it as the right decisions for me right now, don't know if it will continue to feel so all the way long, but sometimes to take a decision and chose a path, is better than standing still in the crossroad may be for years, thinking and wondering where you should go?, even after some time you figure out that it was the wrong path, you will always be able to go back and change it, and it will not be a wasted time because you should had learned through the journey.

Hah it seems that I am looking today through the full half of the glass , hope I will stay like this for long...

winter blue's scribbles!

from my scribbles to a cherished friend after little corrections to keep some privacy :)

I am totally confused, and wish u call, and if u please do not just read and frown.

Should I blog about this, or should I keep it for my own.

Should I counsel a friend, or just think alone.


Should I go overseas to advance in my carrier, or stay here buried as unknown.

And if I went … should I continue in my field, or should I change it and make my past experience blown.

And before I go, should I enter the golden cage, or should I remain alone.

Lacking of sleep, lacking of desire, lacking my spirit being high as a flaming fire...

Should I quit my job to organize my messy life, or should I stay.

I think the best thing to do now is, to read some Quran and pray.

Praise ALLAH almighty and ask him to light up my way .

Get well soon teacher !

The hard job which was exhausting me, finished today, cheers !!!

It was the last day for the 5th year pediatrics clinical exam, I will write out a short idea how the exam is running, each day there are 60 candidates (5th year medical students) , each candidate have to be examined by 4 committees, in each of the 3 committees there is a baby or a child to be medically examined by the 5th year medical student, in front of two examiners who will discuss the case with him, then they evaluate and put his mark, and the 4th committee is an oral exam; to prepare all these committees, with the babies and children to be examined, we have to arrive to the hospital at 7:15 to 7:30 am, with two of my colleagues, we are the coordinators, over the tutors, who will organize these committees.

I wake up before dawn, wash, take my breakfast, and just immediately after alfajer, I got dressed, and hurry up to the hospital, we finish every day around 3:00 p.m.
That continued for 9 days, every day I back home, with every single muscle cell in my legs and feet ,crying eagerly for rest, and my head is throbbing like a drum, I say to myself, tomorrow will be another similar day, so get some rest deary, or u will be done, so I eat, pray, and sleep like a child...

While all this is running, I have to catch up my English classes , and I do attend them, but with less energy, today as usual we finished the exam at 3:00 p.m., and my English class start today at 2:00 p.m., I decided that I will join the class after the break coz we usually take two different subjects, one before and the other after the break, I am that kind of student, who try as much as she can to not miss any thing ,so we hurry up, me and a friend of mine, using her car, breaking through the traffic jam, to reach there at the time of the break, we luckily found a park quickly, speeded to the building, took the stair up to the classes, she joined her class, and I proceeded to my class to find it ...

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da .. da .. da .. daaa ...

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surprisingly empty, first thing passed my mind, they are in a break , but as I was proceeding forward to the board, there it was written in a big letters:

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Ivan (the teacher) is unwell today, and he will be absent ...

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so every body already passed by, and left...

I paused, thought for a moment, then I smiled , took the color pen , and wrote on the board, wish you get well soon, and draw a smily face beside it, with excitement I turned back home , home sweet home I am coming , and tomorrow is the weekend, so an endless sleep is waiting for me.