Thank you my friends

My departure was supposed to be yesterday !!! but for reasons out of my hands plans were postponed for another few days, Omy (my mom) says kol taa7'era , feha 7'era.

well, well, well, yes I was disappointed, but part of me was secretly happy coz I will have some more few days at home.

okey what bring me to blog in these busy days is to share with u the fun of one memorial day arranged by my dearest friends.
We went out for lunch, in fact I am a homy kind of person, and don't usually go out with the Girls, but this time with all the passion of leaving, I decided to accept the invitation, and really didn't regret it for even a second later.
the plan was that one of my dearest friends (miss class), will come to pick me up from my home, and we will pass by the hospital to wait for the others after they finish work, then we will go all together in two cars, to pick up another friend from her home.
the waiting at the hospital parking took longer than we expected, it was already 3:00 pm, and the girls didn't show up, so Miss class held her phone and started dialing their numbers to hurry them up, and here it was my funny shock...

her phone was supported with a pin to press the buttons!!!

when did she own that high tech mobile phone!!!?

I shouted at her why didn't u tell me u will buy this phone, u know I am the techy girl and you should had my opnion !!!
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take a closer look

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. . and I though I am the one who cann't give up things.
she own a good car, and Versace sun glass, and this poor mobile ( she hold them together for her pride coz I told her I will blog about her mobile), I couldn't believe that her phone was actually still working, till I heard her talking to the girls through it.
after that we went all together to pick up our last friend and we head to the nearest photoshoper to take a picture together
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then to the main destination, as all of us were starving, the Chinese resturant
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we thought we will go out of the resturant hungry, coz we weren't familiar with it's service and first time we try it, and for me actually the first time I try chinese food.
the hardest jop was to chose from the menu, we make the waitress suffer, but it was really her problem coz she didn't understand neither English nor Arabic, how can we help that.
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.Each time we ask her about something in the menu, she open her mouth and stretch her hands for a moment as if she is going to explain it, then she hurry to the kitchen, and quickly comeback with a big smile on her face, and small dish in her hands, with the raw ingredient on it !!! ... the poor waitress ... but we didn't want to waste our money, we had to ask before ordering things , it was really a total fun..
but the good thing that the food was great

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and delicious

a hopeless try with the sticks.

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.and of course we didn't forget the sweets in another place near the chinese resturant

we couldn't believe that we still had a place for it, we rock all the diet rules
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it was great fun, but every good thing has an end,

and the end was with a surprise gifts

Thank u my friends, that was really a perfect memorail day,and the two of you who couldn't make it, you were missed...

Can I make it ???

The counting down started.

I supposed to start packing my luggage,

but I am afraid that I might cancel everything.

My room flooded with tears of fear and worry.

plz any body pass by these words , ur prayers are urgently reqired.

Can I really do this hard step ???

What am I doing ???

Did I lost my mind ???

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the following was an sms from a friend, the sms helped me much in my hard times, I want to copy it here for myself, just in case if I went too down one day, it might help me up again :

كل منا قد استخار

والله سألنا أن يختار

وهو يعلم مكان الخير لكل واحدة منا !

فلنمضي فيما سهله الله لنا

وعليه فلنتوكل

ولنعلم أن طلب العلم كالجهاد وهو يشق على الأنفس

غير أن موعده الجنة

ولاتنال الجنة بالتمنى!

وقد اخترنا من بين الملايين لهذه المهمة

فلن نخاف ومعنا الله!

فهو حسبنا ومسهل أمورنا !

فعسى أن يجمعنا برحمته عنده في الجنة !!

Ameeen ya Fatema, thank u so much for these words

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We were four girls going to the state for postgraduate study from our paediatric department, we all got the Visa and we were going to two different states, two in each, but we end up by only me going there, because of long stories, hope I will have the time one day to write about it.

now am I going to finish the road ???

Allah, the only one who know.

du3a people don't forget to make du3a for me.

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benghazi citizen, Akrm, Asma, Leebeya, Abdallah, and any one else asked for an update here it is.

sorry ibeebarbie and any other reader who can't read arabic,.

Libyano be happy, my brothers will irta7 meni soon

Giving up !!!

Why we humans find it so hard to gave up on things?
and that sometimes didn't apply only on "things " but extend to our relations with people.
N.B.: don't wonder about the relation of Sony Erricson mobile phone picture with the following bla bla bla, just continue reading and find out !!!
since my childhood as I guess most of you had have experienced friends separation, due to many causes, the most common cause for me was moving from one place to another.
and that kind of separation affected me deeply, I still remeber my chilhood best friend her name was SEKAB she was from Alsham, her parent were mixed arab one from Palestine and the other from Lebanon, or Jordan, I don't know exactly coz u know in childhood these origins doesn't matter at all, and still doesn't matter to me in my adulthood.
we spent our 1st six years of primary school together, it was only six years and my heart still sqeezing when I remeber the day when we had to leave our place to come back to Libya home for the last time, the separation was so painful, all the excitment of coming home couldn't sooth it, never met with her again ever since.
That even though was a normal life experience, but unfortunately it affected my all friendship later on, in fact I get along with people very easily, but have friends very scarcely, not because there is not much enough good people around, there are many, but I have that ever lasting fear of separation which keep pooping up his face in front of me.
but I realized later that having few friends is more worse coz ur loyality will be bigger and the relation will be deeper and having one of those few friends lost is a catastrophy, and it happened to me again about 4 years back, a cherished friend moved away!!!
but we survive at the end, that is the life.
what brought all this up is that I am still having, from time to time, that feeling of buzzeled scared soul, while I am waiting for the never ending process of my paper work to finish.
and reach the catastrophic moment of separation, and this time not from friends only but from brothers, relatives, friends, colleagues, a life !!!
Am I exaggerating ? it might be an exaggeration , but writing that makes me better.
back to my mobile, which was the main trigger for all this post, it was a good friend for more than five years , and never let me down, even now when I finally gave up and agree to change it, the problem was not because it bothered me, but because it started to bother my phone callers (is it right to say phone caller in English ?) in the last month, who had suffered an agony while trying to recognize my voice through a weired jamming sound, although I was hearing them clearly, what a loyal phone !!!
my Mom with my dear brother who were trying to help me geting over the love and loyality to my mobile phone, were really so brilliant to bring a phone which is very similar in it's shape and colors to my previous one and of course a Sony Erricson, and present it to me as a birth day gift yesterday, yes it was my day :)
which is might ( might in english reflect just a small possibility) be and only might be the real source of all this doom.
and yes my friends I feel much better now :) writing is always work for me.
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this is my new toy:

Aseeda for you !

I would like to thank you all, for your lovely words of congratulation for my first baby niece ( no name yet ! ) , and because I am too generous that I think words are not enough to show my thankfulness, so I decided to serve you the picture of this traditional sweet delicious dish which we use to serve in these occasions for our congratulators.

it is the usual Asseda, sure all of you know, but just garnished in a slightly different way.

I would prefer it with butter and honey, instead of olive oil and rub (rub is a syrup extracted from dates).

I will be grateful if every one of you let me know how he/she would prefer it, so I can serve you well.
and if there are other ways to serve it apart from the two I mentioned, I would like to know it.

thanx in advance

Officially an aunt :)

اسبح واسبح واسبح

في محيط دافئ

هادئ

ملأه الحب

لا أعرف منذ متى ولم يكن يهمني أن أعرف

إلى أن جاء يوم استيقظت فوجدت كل ماحولى يتقلص

يا إلهي ماذا يحدث؟

شئ ما يدفعني الى حيث لاأدري

لم يكن لي خيار إلاٌ أن اتشبث وبقوة

آااه لكن التقلصات تزداد

دقات قلبي تتسارع

اشعر بالاختناق

ولكني سأستمر

سأقاوم

حتى آخر نبض لي

لن أسمح لهم بطردي من ملاذي

فجأة

توقف كل شئ

لم أصدق

لقد فعلتها

نعم

لقد أثمرت مقاومتى

عاد كل شئ كما كان

الهدوء

السكون

ورقصت رقصة الفرح

لكن لحظات فرحي لم تدم طويلا

فما أن التقطت أنفاسي

حتى باغتني نصل حاد واخترق جدار ملاذي الجميل ومزقه

تسرب محيطي المائي من الثقب

انتشر ضؤ أزرق ساطع

اجتاحتني موجة صقيع

ففررت الى ركن قصي

ولكن لم يجدي فراري نفعاً

فلم يعد المحيط مناسبا لي

دقات قلبي تتباطأ

هل هي حقا النهاية؟

أم هي البداية؟؟؟

فجأة انتشلتني يد قوية

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صقيع

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ضوء

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ضجيج

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صرخت بما تبقى لي من قوة

معترضة

واء... واء... واء...

وعاد قلبي ينبض من جديد

May 10th at 11:30 am

was the date of birth of my first niece

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who made me an aunt for the first time, wow, what a great feeling, she was delivered by cesarean section 10 days after her expected date of delivery, and after failed medical induction of normal childbirth.

this cute baby girl was really refusing to come out to our world

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what a stubborn girl !!!

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from where do you think she inherited her stubborn nature?

Is it from her aunt :)

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elhamdoallah ... my sister-in-law and my niece come out safely from this 9 months and 10 days journey.

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Airplane, Depart, Plan !

I will depart tomorow from Libya ( home ) for few days, full of hope and expectations, both good and bad.

I believe whatever happen is the best, even if I couldn't see it as the best for the time being ( I keep repeating this to myself ).

I made du3aa, and I believe that Allah will make the best for me, and will make me able to accept whatever happens.

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NEED YOUR DU3AA TOO :)

My morning visitor !!!

Today's morning, as the sun was shining and it was too hot, so I decided to invest the best of solar energy available, by using our solar powered laundry dryer.

for all who are not familiar with this kind of dryer, I would like to intoduce it for you.
This dryer is the cheapest and the safest for the environment of all kind of laundry dryer machines available on the market, I can bet on this, and the instructions for using it, is so uncomplicated.
It simply consist of a rope or thread called the clothline, dangled highly between two objects in the outside yard, and then the wet clothes is hanged on this line and fixed with pins, cloth pins.
It is as simple as that, and I guarantee you nothing can smell like clothes dried with the direct heat from the sun, and the drying power of warm breezes!!!
Anyway what I am trying to tell here is, when I get out to invest the solar energy and hang our laundry I met my morning visitor, he was hanging there on the clothline waiting for my camera!!!

look at him

lovely chameleon

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here when he started his acrobat show

when he finished he was just leaving, but I did't get enough, so I asked him to stay

but he get angry and shouted at me

I was afraid so I just said :( okey thank you for the show, see u next time,bye bye big guy

don't blame me for this pcts if u hate Bukeshash( chameleon) , coz I am fascinated about dinosaurs and that is the best similar creature to them at my era, and in my area :)