Taken Aug. 14th 2010
From Seattle, Washington the state to Washington DC. the city , not really to Washington city but to a small city near Washington DC , called Silver Spring in Maryland...
The trip was non-stop five hours long flight during Ramadan the 2nd, August, 12th 2010.
A page turend over in my life book. It is turned because of the natural effect of time, but I know practically my soul will be hanging in there for sometime while my body is moving forward to type what need to be typed in the new blank pages ...
The preparation for the move was mixed with the preparation for an important exam which make things more complicated , yet Allah was there to help me out solving everything ...
When I say everthing I mean both small and big things ... and by small I mean the smallest and the silliest thing you can ever think of ... To make the picture clearer here is a story for a small little thing,
In that morning few days befor I move, I lost my hair clip . I don't know where I did put it, but it was not there in the place that it should be in ... searched and searched and couldn't find it ... and unfortunately there is no one else to blame for moving it from it's place, it's only me ... And as I have enough of for myself to blam for I tried just to forget it ...I was in a hustle that morning , I gave up searching and left to do what need to be done in that day ... late in the evening I was doing some MCQ qestions for study, while eating some nuts .. I dropped a nut ... the nut leaped between the furniture in front of my eyes, it jumped in a strange angles to end up in weird place ... I extending my arm to reach it in that corner , I proceeded with my hand, and as my fingers were searching and moving looking for the nut , guess what I hit ?... The Hair Clip ... which I was searching for all the day long... and if it is not for the nut which dropped in that weird angle I would have given away the furniture and never found that hair clip ... It is simple , no majic behind ... Allah was there...
This was just a little tiny examble ... if I start telling big stories, I will never stop ...
Allah's providential care have been surrounding me in a way that I feel ashamed of myself for not giving back what need to be given ... I just take take and take ... What a shame !
So, the preparation for movement was a little hard but the trip itslf went smoothly ... As always, I plan for everything in advance. While traveling I don't like to leave things for surprises, for the seek of safety ... I made a reservation for everything from the shuttle that will pick me from my place to the airport in Seattle to the shuttle that will be taking me from the airport to my new place in Silver Spring.
Settling down was easy too, but later on as the days proceeded I got some un-pleasent unexpected surprises ... But as Always Allah's providential care was overwhelming and things went just fine ...
More inhsAllah in the coming weeks If I got time, as I will be starting my first day of clinical medical training tomorrow ... This is not the real medical residecy, this is just a kind of training to get some US clinical experience which can help in getting residency position later on if Allah wantend ...
There is saying that say , When God is at the center of ur priority in life , u r the center of Allah's providential care
I wish in these blessed days that this saying applies to me ... but I am afraid being the other kind of people which Allah testing them by giving and giving and giving them what they wanted and want to see if they will obey and they just go astray and never obey and you know the rest ...
I just wish that in my life time I can give back to Allah, at least half of what he has given to me ...
Ramadan Kareem for All ...
I will remember you in my prayers , and would appreciate it , if u do the same :)
3 comments:
Hello there,
Well, I just do not agree with your approach to God. God is not fear and punishment; you do this or I will take this away from you.
If God is the way you and most muslims think He is, none of the nonbelievers would have had any chance of living, let alone thriving and having successful lives.
God is not fear and it baffles me to see this in most muslims; that their relationship with God is governed by fear; punishment, hell, strike you with illness, etc. I guess it is drilled in our psyche from infant-hood; do this or Allah will strike you with some misfortune, cover your head (as if Allah really cares that much about showing our hairs or not) or He will grill you in Hell!
But where is Allah's mercy, love, forgiveness!
You said that you wish to pay Allah back for His abundance and providing for you! I do not think Allah needs or wants anything from you apart from being helpful to your fellow human-beings, regardless of their religion, gender, race, sexual affiliation, etc. As a trained physician you can give a lot to many needy people and help bring the smile on their faces and that is a gift I hope you will use wisely and not succumb into what most people of your profession (doctors) usually do, i.e, turn their profession into a money making machine.
Unfortunately most doctors and physicians are ruthless and heartless, savvy business people. They milk the poor patient to the last drop.
Help to wipe the tears of sick people and Allah will be pleased with you. As for for getting up before the crack of down to pray or covering your seemingly utterly beautiful hair or wearing a long flowing dress, etc, believe me Allah doesn't give a damn , contrarry to what has been drilled to the psychic to all muslims and I was one of them, till I become enlightened :)
An enlightened Libyan muslim girl
Dear Enlightened Libyan muslim girl...
I was watching this vedio and recalled your comment ... the vedio reflected the point of view which I wanted to convey in my post and I thought if you listen to it you would understand more what I wanted to say.
Regards :)
Oops! forgot the link of the vedio,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vis_dZXzn-g&feature=player_embedded
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